A new blog for a new decade...

Ah 2010. Kage freaked me out this morning by telling me "Hey, G; you do realise that when the next decade's gone you're gonna be pushing 30...then think about how fast THIS decade's gone...enjoy"
She's a delightful girl.

I shall be ringing in...wait, is that right? or is it bringing in? errr daym i should know this. ok, delete as relevant;
I shall be ringing/ bringing in the new year with the lads and lasses of homefolkshire tomorrow night- Panders are taking care of Eli and we're going to Vic and John's.I'm kinda nervous- the last time i drank at Vic and John's i ended up throwing up out of a moving vehicle. COOL KID ALERT.

ALSO- in a rare moment of cool Panders have said Fozzatron can drink!it took much cajoling on the part of everyone, but the cajolement (word?not a word?for an English student i'm not all that eloquent) paid off so OH HUZZAH! shall be highlarryus to watch my young padawan divulge.

I've been trying to write a list of new years resolutions, but struggling somewhat. i dunno if it's just cos i'm reading far too much into it though. It's all for good reasons though. I mean, New Years resolutions come once a year-well done Amy- and are often seen as an opportunity to look back on yourself and analyse what you don't like about yourself and what you want to see change, and look at the mistakes you've made and make sure you don't make them again. But the things that i would usually resolve year after year having failed dismally to do so are...well, they're kinda resolved this time.

My resolutions used to be utterly preoccupied by bettering myself- i constantly considered myself not good enough or that i was just a bit of a waste of space, so i'd make resolutions like "Lose tons of weight", "try to be someone people will like", "Be more confident", etc etc- and for pretty much 19 years that was it. And genuinely for the first time ever i don't feel it's necessary to think of those things as situations that need to be resolved- which makes me smile so much it's insane!!

in the last half a year or so i turned a massive corner in my life, as after-school special that may seem, and i suddenly liked me for me. I found myself not constantly changing outfits for fear of looking too fat- i wear what i want when i want to because i want to. that doesn't sound too bad- but i used to plan outfits for hours at night thinking of ways to cover up more. Now? pfft, whatever is cleanest gets chucked on and i couldn't care less :D
Confidence is no longer an issue for me- and this is entirely down to university. the situations i was in where i had to hold my own, and the people i met who constantly let me know that i was perfectly capable of being who i wanted to have changed my entire spectrum of thinking. i know who i am now, and i stay true to it. and the difference it's made? Man, i hold my head higher every time i start to walk!!
And as far as being someone people want to like? the fact that so many of my old friends barely talk to me now shows me they were my friends for the wrong reasons. the friends i have now, and the people who like me now, as i am, they're the ones to worry about upsetting, not someone who knew they could walk all over and so that's what they did, cos that's not friendship.

and so my new years resolutions are thus;
-Be optimistic. just because one thing goes wrong doesn't mean it all will!
-Become more organised!!
-Smile at people ,even if you don't know them. not in a creepy way though :D
-learn how to play the piano
-get over your odd socks= good luck obsession!BLATES NOT TRUE!
-spend more time with all your friends
-write on your blog more, and for heavens sake keep up with your diary!!
-work harder!
-don't be so reliant on Panders et al
-Enjoy everything. just BE happy

And that's that :) it's so weird, i had no idea what i was gonna write under 'Here are my new years resolutions' until i suddenly started writing them...huh. i spose they were easier to write down than i anticipated!!

Have an amazing New Years Eve, New Years day and New Year my lovelies ^^ take care whatever you're doing and i'll see you in the new year :D

OH HUZZAH FOR THE RETURNAGE TO MY BLOGGATRON!!!
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